I am reminded that I am not home yet. I am longing for a better day. When I find myself in a place I don’t want to be, I whisper to my soul…you’re not home yet.
When the day feels troubled… when pressure mounts…when I feel lost and I am losing my way…when I suddenly am overwhelmed and anxious, I run to you, Father. I ask for Your help, and You listen to me with a heart of love. I make a conscious choice to turn to You. I don’t turn to others first when I am in distress, but I am crying out to you, my dear Father. I feel urgency rising, my request is pleading and fervent. I need rescue from liars and devious deception.
You are my God and my Father. I am your child running to you for help. I need you.
My head is full of questions. What else does the blazing distorter of truth want? What more can I do for the artful manipulator and shameless liar? Deceptive, false words are like a sharp & pointed arrow dipped into the fiery poison of hell sent to destroy. I feel helpless and frustrated.
I do not belong here. I feel full of self-pity as I look upon my circumstances. All of this pain reminds me that I am not home yet. I am longing for a better day. I find myself in a place I don’t want to be. I am only a sojourner in this land of rage & upset. I pursue peace, but they persist in inflaming controversy and stirring up trouble.
Father, as I give you this heart of angst, I remember that I am not home yet. You give me fresh mercy every day, but I live still in this alien world full of hate. I need You, Father. Every. Day.
One writer reveals the tension well, “the new humanity that is created around Jesus is not a humanity that is always going to be successful and in control of things, but a humanity that can reach out its hand from the depths of chaos, to be touched by the hand of God.” Father, I am humbly grateful that You are near to the broken who are living in the land of Chaos.
Rescue me from the lies of advertisers who claim to know what I need and what I desire, from the lies of entertainers who promise a cheap way to joy, from the lies of politicians who pretend to instruct me in power and morality, from the lies of psychologists who offer to shape my behavior and my morals so that I will live long, happily, and successfully, from the lies of religionists who “heal the wounds of this people lightly,” from the lies of moralists who pretend to promote me to the office of captain of my fate, from the lies of pastors who “leave the commandment of God, and hold fast the tradition of men” (Mk. 7:8). Rescue me from the person who tells me of life and omits Christ, who is wise in the ways of the world and ignores the movement of the Spirit. The lies are impeccably factual. They contain no errors. There are no distortions of falsified data. But they are lies all the same because they claim to tell us who we are and omit everything about our origin in God and our destiny in God. They talk about the world without telling us that God made it. They tell us about our bodies without telling us that they are temples of the Holy Spirit. They instruct us in love without telling us about the God who loves us and gave himself for us. — Eugene H. Peterson, A Long Obedience in the Same Direction (Downers Grove, IL: InterVarsity Press, 1980), 23.
(I wrote this post as my own paraphrase of Psalm 120.)